With the Paediatrics and Obs & Gynae OSCEs just days away, I see a mid-life crisis brimming over the edge. You start getting menopausal symptoms like hot flushes, sweats and mood swings. And you start panicking about very relevant and currently irrelevant things like...
- OMG! How did I learn the whole of adult medicine shrunk for kids plus communication with parents and all other issues regarding kids like child abuse, development and learning difficulties in 6 weeks and are now expected to deal with them in exams???
- OMG! Why did I choose a university in which we have to come up with our own learning objectives, go home, look it up in some books and the internet and voila, that's the majority of our medical education! I might as well not have gone to uni and just bought some medical books if I wanted to learn medicine on my own! At least I would have saved the government some money which they might have used for the people.
- OMG! I just finished my last proper placement for clinicals and am practically supposed to know (almost) everything there is to know before I qualify as a doctor. But I don't, so I'm not safe enough to be one, but then the finals are in less than 9 months and then I'll graduate if I pass, and then how am I supposed to go home and work when I don't know enough???
- OMG! Banyaknya isu public health and health education nak kena address bila balik Malaysia. OMG! Banyaknya corrupt people working in the healthcare system! OMG! Camana nak balik kerja kat Malaysia tanpa rasa tension/give up hari2???
Exams in medical school are very depressing and demanding. When we were in school, study skit2 then boleh target A1 or A2. Masuk KMB, most of the time it was between a 6 or 7 (except Maths obviously), and still banyak masa untuk ada social life (lepak2 kat Alamanda, Midvalley, KLIA) and skodeng budak laki main bola hari2. But masuk je medical school, you have to work so so damn hard just to get a low pass! Rasa macam makin besar, makin bodoh. And bila fikir you're doing all this just to go back to Malaysia where life is even more difficult for junior doctors makes you wanna hang yourself. Life isn't fair!
But then, as Sorin my Obs & Gynae registrar (yang dulu main bola untuk Romania's under 18s) says, "So what if you fail the exams, at least you're much better off than people dying of cancer."
Oh dear me... What other choice do I have than to study hard and manipulate everyone/everything within reach for my advantage.
- OMG! How did I learn the whole of adult medicine shrunk for kids plus communication with parents and all other issues regarding kids like child abuse, development and learning difficulties in 6 weeks and are now expected to deal with them in exams???
- OMG! Why did I choose a university in which we have to come up with our own learning objectives, go home, look it up in some books and the internet and voila, that's the majority of our medical education! I might as well not have gone to uni and just bought some medical books if I wanted to learn medicine on my own! At least I would have saved the government some money which they might have used for the people.
- OMG! I just finished my last proper placement for clinicals and am practically supposed to know (almost) everything there is to know before I qualify as a doctor. But I don't, so I'm not safe enough to be one, but then the finals are in less than 9 months and then I'll graduate if I pass, and then how am I supposed to go home and work when I don't know enough???
- OMG! Banyaknya isu public health and health education nak kena address bila balik Malaysia. OMG! Banyaknya corrupt people working in the healthcare system! OMG! Camana nak balik kerja kat Malaysia tanpa rasa tension/give up hari2???
Exams in medical school are very depressing and demanding. When we were in school, study skit2 then boleh target A1 or A2. Masuk KMB, most of the time it was between a 6 or 7 (except Maths obviously), and still banyak masa untuk ada social life (lepak2 kat Alamanda, Midvalley, KLIA) and skodeng budak laki main bola hari2. But masuk je medical school, you have to work so so damn hard just to get a low pass! Rasa macam makin besar, makin bodoh. And bila fikir you're doing all this just to go back to Malaysia where life is even more difficult for junior doctors makes you wanna hang yourself. Life isn't fair!
But then, as Sorin my Obs & Gynae registrar (yang dulu main bola untuk Romania's under 18s) says, "So what if you fail the exams, at least you're much better off than people dying of cancer."
Oh dear me... What other choice do I have than to study hard and manipulate everyone/everything within reach for my advantage.
2 comments:
salam alayk
nape bunyi ayat mcm pasrah gile je ni kak zatil hehe
good luck ye kak btw =D
Oh sungguh pasrah! Makin banyak baca, makin banyak tak tau. Mati la bila exam lagi 5 hari!
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