Apologies for the rather depressing tone of my recent posts. I can't help it, with everything going on. Ayoh's decease, which was shortly followed by Kadir's great grandmother was two blows in a row. Then there were a few other things as well which made it difficult to be travelling to and from Blackburn (and Burnley, and Darwen, and Colne) everyday. As I said to Dr Wallis, it's difficult enough being far away from home and only seeing our family for a short period once a year, without all of these things happening back at home. But alhamdulillah, saya telah berjaya ditukarkan kembali ke Preston.
I am slowly recovering from the bereavement for my grandfather. I do still cry everytime I read something about him, it just feels so depressing to only learn about so many things about Ayoh after he has gone. It's so depressing to only learn to appreciate his very life after he has left us. And it's so depressing to not be able to be with the rest of the family as they are going through the grieving process.
Excerpts from Abah, Ayah La etc.
When we ajar Ayah to mengucap, he would keep repeating
"Ayah tak lupa, ayah tidak lupa"
Everytime I recited
لا اله الا الله
Ayah will not only say the same, but he added two more:
لا اله الا الله فى كل لمحة ونفس عدد ما وسعه علم الله
لا اله الا انت سبحانك انى كنت من الظالمين
Monday: Ayah baca Quran ayat
إِنَّ ٱللَّهَ ٱشۡتَرَىٰ مِنَ ٱلۡمُؤۡمِنِينَ أَنفُسَهُمۡ وَأَمۡوَٲلَهُم بِأَنَّ لَهُمُ ٱلۡجَنَّةَۚ يُقَـٰتِلُونَ فِى سَبِيلِ ٱللَّهِ فَيَقۡتُلُونَ وَيُقۡتَلُونَۖ وَعۡدًا عَلَيۡهِ حَقًّ۬ا فِى ٱلتَّوۡرَٮٰةِ وَٱلۡإِنجِيلِ وَٱلۡقُرۡءَانِۚ وَمَنۡ أَوۡفَىٰ بِعَهۡدِهِۦ مِنَ ٱللَّهِۚ فَٱسۡتَبۡشِرُواْ بِبَيۡعِكُمُ ٱلَّذِى بَايَعۡتُم بِهِۦۚ وَذَٲلِكَ هُوَ ٱلۡفَوۡزُ ٱلۡعَظِيمُ
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Ayah,
Walau bagaimanapun, ada beberapa perkara sebelum ayah berpindah ke alam baqa' yang kami tidak pasti dan mungkin tidak akan dapat jawapannya.
Sehari sebelum ayah pergi, ayah minta buah anggur untuk dimakan. Selepas kami beli dan cuba bagi ayah, ayah cakap yang ayah dah makan. Sampai 50 biji ayah makan, ayah cakap, dan masa kami kupas kulit anggur yang dibeli untuk bagi ayah, ayah kata tak perlu kupas sebab anggur yang ayah makan tadi tu takpun dikupas. Kami tak pasti siapa yang menyuapkan anggur-anggur itu untuk ayah.
Sehari sebelum ayah pergi, ayah minta buah anggur untuk dimakan. Selepas kami beli dan cuba bagi ayah, ayah cakap yang ayah dah makan. Sampai 50 biji ayah makan, ayah cakap, dan masa kami kupas kulit anggur yang dibeli untuk bagi ayah, ayah kata tak perlu kupas sebab anggur yang ayah makan tadi tu takpun dikupas. Kami tak pasti siapa yang menyuapkan anggur-anggur itu untuk ayah.
Pada awal pagi keberangkatan ayah, ayah minta makanan sebab ayah kata ayah lapar. Tapi selepas Ma sediakan, ayah kata dah makan. Kami tak tahu siapa yang suapkan ayah di awal pagi tu.
Beberapa ketika sebelum ayah berpindah ke alam yang seterusnya, ada semacam wangian yang datang dan pergi di rumah kita. Kami tidak tahu di manakah punca wangian ini.
Apapun ayah,
Beberapa ketika sebelum ayah berpindah ke alam yang seterusnya, ada semacam wangian yang datang dan pergi di rumah kita. Kami tidak tahu di manakah punca wangian ini.
Apapun ayah,
Semoga anggur yang ayah makan itu adalah hasil usaha ayah yang menyemai dan mendidik manusia-manusia untuk menjadi soleh dan muslih, yang sekarang ini pula menabur bakti untuk masyarakat.
Semoga makanan yang ayah makan di awal pagi itu adalah habuan awal yang ayah dapat hasil usaha ayah memberi makan anak yatim, derma untuk membina masjid-masjid dan surau-surau dan wakaf tanah kubur.
Semoga wangian itu adalah wangian dari setiap huruf, setiap perkataan dan setiap ayat yang ayah baca sebelum ayah menutup mata setiap malam, yang datang kembali mengerumuni ayah sebelum ayah menutup mata buat kali terakhir di dunia ini.
Insya Allah.
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I miss you, Ayoh.
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Apologies to the people of Gaza, for not doing enough to help you through your strife. It's been 23 days since the offence of the inhumane Zionist regime on the Gazans, and more than 1000 have been martyred. Israel kononnya offer a ceasefire at about 2 am earlier today, but their troops are still in Gaza and will just start striking again if there are any signs of violence from the Palestinians.
In the first place, they claimed that the attack was an act of defense to due to the firing of rockets from the Gazans, kononnya from Hamas. Well, what I don't understand is that if Hamas is who they're looking for, why can't you just take out those who are responsible and spare the many innocents who have been killed and injured in the war? Surely, with all the intelligence of the IDF, plus the support of the main world powers, it would be a piece of cake to identify where the Hamas 'terrorists' are actually hiding. Why, oh why, did you have to attack schools and refugee camps which the UN acknowledged was not a hideout for militants, but rather a sanctuary for all those civilians who had lost the safety and security of their homes due to Israeli forces???
And guess what? With all those claims of self defense, some CNN researchers have actually discovered that a month before the so-called defensive offenses by Israel due to the fire rockets, Israel had previously broken the ceasefire by attacking several places and their continued blockade on Gaza, on suspicion of terrorism (as always, there's no need for proof, as per confessions of IDF veterans). (Reference: CNN)
Yes, I know it's not a matter of who started it, and who has been affected more, for every life is valuable. But if you want to understand why these conflicts are going on, and why we should support Palestinians, you have to understand the history of it all. Then, and only then, can you put yourself in the shoes of the Palestinians (if they can afford shoes), and attempt to fathom the complexities of it all. After all, truth is always on the side of the oppressed (Malcolm X).
Taken from Facebook group - Reasons why we should support Palestine...
... because the Palestinians have been systematically removed from their lands, oppressed and massacred since the early 1900s, when the concept of Zionism was first born.
... because the Palestinians and their allies have been fighting to regain their independence since it was stripped away by the Zionist regime in 1948 and other nations. The Zionist regime has attacked every group [peaceful or militant] that advocates or fights for Palestinian freedom. Similarly, the Zionist regime also has attacked peaceful, civilian NGOs that advocate essential human rights for Palestinians which have been grossly violated and denied by the Zionist regime.
... because why do the Palestinians have to pay the price for what happened in World War II? The Palestinians had nothing to do with the Holocaust. If the Jews are entitled to their own "homeland", how come the Palestinians aren't entitled to their homeland as well? What makes it ok to uproot and displace hundreds of thousands of Palestinians, essentially wiping Palestine off the map? Nothing within the bounds of humanity would justify such an act.
... because the "Right of Return" states that all refugees that have been displaced may return to their homes. This does not exist for Palestinians. Palestinians are often denied the right to return to their homeland while simultaneously, Jews from around the world leave their home country to live on stolen land. By definition, it could be argued that many of these Jews are not refugees, as many are of European descent whose ancestors converted many years prior. Meanwhile, these Palestinians who have lived on and worked their land for eons are being forced out and into refugee camps for decades at a time.
... because according to the Jerusalem Post, Tikkun, UN official reports and other statistics, there are over 10,000 Palestinians (many women and children) who are being held in Israeli detention centers/prisons. The vast majority have yet to consult with an attorney, face charges or even told why they are there. Many more lack proper medical care, access to food and water and are forced to live in squalor conditions. The Zionist regime often denies various humanitarian relief agencies access to them.
... because the Zionist regime violates a myriad of international human rights treaties while undermining their own quest for "peace". The Zionist regime has committed gross human rights atrocities and violations against the Palestinians and has committed a vast number of war crimes of which the UN has condemned. These cases are well-documented and not disputable.
... because "Israel" has the Middle East's largest stockpile of nuclear weapons, even though it claims to be a non-nuclear weapons declared state. Furthermore, it is one of the only countries in the world (192 total) that refuses to sign the Non-Proliferation Treaty. Are those the actions of a "peace-loving state"?
... because 74 is the number of UN resolutions the Zionist regime has defied; more than any other state in existence.
... because Palestinian refugees make up the largest number of refugees in the world, surpassing 4 million.
... because Palestine is home to some of Islam's most holiest sites, including the Al-Aqsa Mosque where Muhammad ascended into heaven. The Dome of the Rock, or Masjid Qubbat As-Sakhrah, is one of the most beautiful, most important, mosques ever built.
... because the Zionist military, the IDF, is one of the most immoral armies in the world with no regard for civilian causalities or Arab life. The IDF is a flagrant and blatant violator of war crimes. The IDF has been heavily criticized by public officials from around the world for its outrageous and unnecessary actions, especially in the summer of 2006, among others. It refers to the killing of 19 individuals as an "accident". In the summer of 2006, the IDF killed over 1,700 civilians in Lebanon because two of it's soldiers were kidnapped. IDF soldiers have acted in the most barbaric of ways, yet this image of the IDF soldier is never displayed on American television.
... because the Zionist regime has constructed an apartheid wall while simultaneously gobbling up more Palestinian land. The construction of this wall is built with a stone-aged mentality. The apartheid wall deviates from "defined" borders while encompassing water sources and Palestinian farmland. The apartheid wall swallows up anything of value and is illegal under the authority of the UN.
... because the Zionist entity itself is an apartheid state. In the Zionist entity, non-Jews (especially Arabs) receive far less rights than Jews. An Arab in the Zionist entity is treated much the same way an African-American person was treated in Alabama during the 1960's. "Jews Only" job ads were permissible up until 1988. Non-Jews must present special documentation prior and after crossing the border while Jews do not. Discrimination against non-Jews in the Zionist entity is rampant. Arabs cannot buy or lease land within the Zionist entity.
... because Palestine existed before there ever was an "Israel". What was on the map in "Israel's" current location prior to 1948?
... because IDF commanders have openly admitted that Palestinian unarmed POW's were executed, which is just one of the many examples where the Geneva Convention was violated. The Zionist regime also refuses to prosecute its soldiers who have admitted to executing prisoners of war. Furthermore, in 2003, Rachel Corrie, an American and peaceful protester, was run over intentionally by an IDF bulldozer. The IDF officer who was in the driver's seat admitted to the act but never apologized and he was never punished.
... because the Zionist regime receives more economic aid from the US annually than all 45 countries in Africa in total.
... because the Palestinians face an enormous media bias against them in the American media. Meanwhile, the Zionist regime in conjunction with the work of AIPAC, has a significant hold over the American media and is always portrayed to be on the defense when in reality, this is rarely the case.
... "because this is my homeland and no one can kick me out..." - Arafat
... because we are determined to never give up the fight to come back to our home... that you bulldozed, destroyed and stole.
We'll fight, not out of spite
For someone must stand up for what's right
'Cause where there's a man who has no voice
There ours shall go singing.
- Jewel
For someone must stand up for what's right
'Cause where there's a man who has no voice
There ours shall go singing.
- Jewel
